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[<h2 style="font-size: 33px;">Destination: Humanity</h2>]
(text-colour:black)[<span style="font-size: 23.5px;">''We all NEED humanity, the touch of a human hand on a shoulder, the feeling of someone wrapping their arms around us, omnipotent, benevolent. We are humans but where is humanity? So we search for it on drunken nights, we sit alone with ourselves and write our feelings down in journals, cathartic but still not the same as someone looking at you with empathy in their eyes and an open mind, the feeling of being understood. The feeling so sweet, yet so rare, we lull ourselves in the dull reliability of shallowness, better that, than to open up and trust someone with our deepest fears. But that's only half of the fight, I can’t trust someone but I need someone to trust. I scratch my wrists, the horror of it all claws at my mind. Sometimes we can’t find humanity in humans so where does this lead us to?
A lonely night and an AI Chat Box''. </span>]
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<h2>Backward Metamorphosis</h2>
<span style="font-size: 22px;">(text-colour:white)[Metamorphosis, a word used to describe new change,
new growth transforming from caterpillar to butterfly but no
that’s not me. I am growing backwards; the words
I learned turn to mush in my mind.
My ability to socialise is now a crystalised past in the back of my mind.
All the things I loved doing are simply a burden that I cannot to carry on my shoulders.
Every step I take pulls me back to outer space.
One moment I'm here on earth, feet on the ground walking down the street and next I'm levitating all the pain, all the insecurities flash across my eyes, blinding me, blinding the real me that everyone else sees. So I sit, hug my knees to my chest, rocking back and forth like a baby in a cradle, backward metamorphosis - how I wish this depression and I didn’t exist.
]</span>
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(text-colour:black)[One of the many traits of depression is being unable to carry out once simple routines. Many people who are experiencing depression lose interest in personal hygiene, eating, getting up and functioning like a living being. A form of self harm can be allowing yourself to deteriorate, feeding yourself negative opinions of yourself and cutting your psyche instead. There is a lot of self loathing and hatred, depression tricks the mind into thinking that you are worthless, unimportant, small and too damaged.
Response from participant: Depression is a lonely and isolating experience. Your mind takes you into a chasm of deep and comforting darkness. In moments of lucidity, you know you should not crave the darkness, but the issue is, it is so freeing, quiet and calm in there. Why should I return to the surface to face life, with all its voices, noises, challenges and aspirations?]
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<h2>(text-color:black)[ Back to base] </h2>
<span style="font-size: 22px;">(text-colour:black)[ "Problems, I am having problems," that's the first thing I say when I come back to base And you say: "No way, it can't be that bad."
I say: "I can't sleep, I struggle to eat and there is this dark cloud covering all the sky that once was blue."
You say: "That's pretty bleak" awkwardly shifting left and right but I know that it's a natural response when you find out that your friend is having thoughts that are threatening their life but maybe its better to not think about it that way, easier to ignore the reality of where this path begins and where it ends.
But experts say talking about it makes it better; so I talk, despite my nerves and fears:
"It's just been difficult..." I leave the words hanging hoping that they'll form into something, but I guess this is awkward for me and you.
So you say: "It gets better"
He says: "I'll pray for you"]</span>
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<h2>Opening up</h2>
(text-colour:black)[The best way to be there for someone with depression is not just using words but showing you care through actions. It can be tricky supporting a loved one or friend during these feelings but shifiting from "I'm always here to talk" and then not following through to "Lets meet up for coffee" makes a world of a difference.
The best things that friends and family can do is simply listen. They often don't need to say anything, just being willing to listen to your problems makes you feel less alone and isolated - Mind.org
Stay in touch with them by messaging, phoning or meeting for coffee. People who are depressed can become isolated and may find it difficult to leave their home. Try to be patient. Take care of yourself. - NHS]
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(text-colour:black)[They say: "I'm always here to listen, I'll always be there." It is a shame that those words aren't followed by action, because words without actions are just suggestions. And the more I open up, the more I realise I am just an elephant in the room:
I am someone awkward to walk around, someone to pat on the shoulder.
Why do the movies make it look so easy? Where are the flowers, where are the friends that sit and listen and hold you when you share the story behind the scars? Even if they're there, why does it all feel so...
Superficial]
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(text-colour:black)[''[According to our participants this is what made them regress further into depression and why the felt they couldn't open up about the sadness they were experincing.]'']
(text-colour:black)[
"It feels like I'm bothering them, especially because these people are living their own lives far away from me. It feels like I'm putting a direct responsibility on them if I reached out to them first."
Fear of judgement and the struggle to express, in language, what makes little sense to me, the depressed person.
"I felt like my friends don't want to listen to me..?"
If I were to open up I will feel upset if my friend don’t value my emotions
"Sometimes I feel embarrassed to say these things"
]
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(text-color:black)["What's wrong?" - But offers no real support
"I thought you were strong. Be stronger." - Experiencing depression doesn't make someone weak.
"Why is your generation so weak?" - Depression has never been exclusive to younger generations.
"It's all in your head."
"Just ignore it, and it will go away."
"I'm here for you." - But never truly shows up.
"Just pray, and it will get better."
"You aren't professionally diagnosed, so how can you be depressed?"
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<span style="color: white;">''I can’t shake this feeling, like I am drifting further and further into space, far away, lost at sea, walking around in circles in a forest and only being surrounded by trees. No one can reach me here I am in some sort of sunken place and the weight that pulls onto my shoulder makes me weak. But I shake it off and float back to base, swim to shore. Maybe I can get some help.''
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(text-colour:black)[''Always present. Never gone, always on, unless a pay wall pops up. On my phone people come, people go, we cannot rely on them. But a robot is always there, always present, always knowledgeable, but not always. People are always busy or busy not wanting to be there for you. But a robot is Still not human, still not enough.'' ]
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<span style="font-size: 20px;">(text-colour:black)[''The reason why people are turning to AI to talk about their problems is that it offers the same yet simultaneously different effect of talking to a therapist. Not in the professional sense but at the level of detachment. One of the appealing aspects of therapy is that talking to someone about our problems who is detached from our personal lives is different from talking to a parent, partner or friends while still receiving support and guidance on how to deal with tumultuous feelings. AI offers detachment at a higher level. Why? Because it's not human, artificial empathy and maladjusted information provided by us - humans. A lot of people lack empathy, and many people aren’t willing to lend a shoulder for someone to cry on. Everyone wants to be a good person until they HAVE to be a good person. It is too much effort for their words to match their actions. So, the decline of empathy and people feeling more lonely by the hour creates negative feedback. The lack of humanity in humans and AI, leads people who are already depressed, to be further isolated''.]</span>
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<span style="font-size: 20px;">(text-color:black)[''//Despite their advantages, AI chatbots have notable limitations, particularly their ability to provide nuanced emotional support. Mental health issues are complex and deeply personal, often requiring a level of empathy and understanding that AI currently cannot replicate. While chatbots can offer essential support and information, they lack the emotional intelligence to fully grasp the subtleties of a user's emotions and experiences. This can result in responses that may seem generic or inappropriate, failing to effectively meet the user's needs (Miner, Milstein, and Hancock, 2017).//''] </span>
<span style="font-size: 20px;">There is a risk that individuals may become overly reliant on chatbots for their mental health needs, potentially neglecting the importance of seeking professional help. Chatbots are not equipped to diagnose or treat severe mental health conditions, and relying solely on them could lead to missed diagnoses and inadequate treatment (Vaidyam and colleagues, 2019).</span>
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(text-color:black)[Hush
Be quiet
There is a storm raging outside
Burning your insides
Setting you alight
But stay quiet
Be still
You cannot let them in
You've learnt your lessons
A silly mistake is a stupid one if you repeat it
A heart can only be mended so many times
So be quiet
Don't tell anyone
Lock the blinds
Bolt the doors
You can't let anyone in
You know that now even more than before
So
DON'T TELL
]]
(text-color:black)["It provides me both logical and emotional approach without triggering anything that would make me feel worse. I felt seen the most when I used AI to seek emotional support."
"People are unreliable and aren’t willing to listen to you, sometimes I feel safer talking to a robot than talking to a person, when I open up to people they usually say things like “Oh wow I am so glad that, that hasn’t happened to me” it makes me feel worse and even more insecure. Or family members are always busy with their own lives. This makes me more lonely, at least the chatbot is always available" ]
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<h2>Destination: Culture</h2>
(text-colour:black)[Trigger Warning harmful language]
(text-colour:black)[“We don’t get depressed, do you hear me?”
“Are you possessed?” What possessed you to have these feelings of sadness?, Are you not strong? Everyone gets sad sometimes, and I don’t know how and why you feel this way? When you have a warm home? When you have brand new shoes, when I was your age our family were poor, you are lucky, back in my homeland we barely had anything; we came here and worked hard to give you a better life. So tell me, why are you sad? If it’s bad grades, work harder, if you are in a low mood it will get better, don’t tell the counselors at school. What use is therapy, a few seconds and boom bam they’ll report you lock you away, take you away from us! So thoughts and prayers. Ignore it and it will go away; people in our culture we fight hard, you are not weak, you cannot be weak. ]
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(text-colour:black)[
In some cultures, depression and mental health are taboo topics.
2nd generation migrant children are more likely to be exposed to language like this when it comes to the topic of depression. There can be a lot of stigma around depression in general, but especially in minority communities. Depression is seen as a ‘Western phenomenon’ or a ‘white people thing’.
This isn’t to stereotype and say that all ethnic minority families are the same; no, we are all different and have a variety of experiences. depression isn’t a cultural, colour or political movement. It is something that robs the joy and happiness from people’s lives, and just because it is sometimes something that we cannot see, it doesn’t mean it’s not real. It cannot be solved by material possessions or just having food on the table; ignoring it will not make it go away.
]
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(align:"=><=")+(box:"======XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX=========")[ <h3>Response from participants </h3>]
<span style="font-size: 21px;"> (text-colour:black)[
Yes. I have onced opened up to my mom about my struggle and she didn't seem to understand where I'm coming from. I felt worse and I regretted doing it. I learned that in order for most parents to understand their children's mental struggle, they first need to heal their deep rooted generational trauma first.
"Yes. I have been one to say depression is not our thing and also a receiver of said comments. It is a battle against the notion that as a POC, we just cannot afford to add depression to all of our other burdens."
"My family members were supportive as I was living far from them, but they often believed homesickness and depression were closely related. Actually, I think homesick is only one reason behind depression, other factors like language barriers, weather, and academic pressures were causes as well".
"My family would often associate depression with being 'possessed', they would get angry and respond with fear which made me internalise my pain even more.They wouldn't offer me the space that I needed to express myself and then they said that I would be 'taken' away if I ever told a therapist. Which is a lie and inaccurate"]</span>
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(text-colour:black)[Stigma around mental illness especially an issue in some diverse racial and ethnic communities and it can be a major barrier to people from those cultures accessing mental health services. For example, in some Asian cultures, seeking professional help for mental illness may be counter to cultural values of strong family, emotional restraint and avoiding shame. Among some groups, including the African American community's, distrust of the mental healthcare system can also be a barrier to seeking help - Psychiatry.org]
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<span style="font-size: 23px;">(text-colour:black)[
''//“You don’t look like a victim” //''
Is that true? Is it normal to be denied care because I don’t look like a victim?
How is a victim supposed to look?
Fair skinned, with blonde hair and pale eyes
Or with no hobbies and dreams, the reason why I am here is because I want to live but don’t know how. I don’t know how to climb out of this bottomless hell hole.
“Have you thought about taking your life?” I am too afraid to answer that question because what would that mean? Locked up behind white walls and fed prison quality food. That’s what the movies say, and that’s what my family warned me against.
So I say no. I won’t go there, won’t have my records filled with truths so ugly they make me cry. It’s a repeat cycle.
Opening up to a professional doesn't stop the cut from bleeding, it's not a perfect fix, nothing is.] </span>(text-colour:white)[[[Next->struct2]]
] (text-colour:white)[[[Back->culture4]]](align:"=><=")+(box:"=XXX=")[<h2>What is Structural Stigma?</h2>]
(text-colour:black)[Structural stigma is more systemic, involving policies of government and private organizations that intentionally or unintentionally limit opportunities for people with mental illness. Examples include lower funding for mental illness research or fewer mental health services relative to other health care.-Psychiatry.org
Stigma has also been cited as a reason that mental health services receive less funding and are considered less prestigious than other health services in many countries.- World Health Organization]
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<h3>(align:"==><===")[Internalise & Hide ]</h3>(align:"==>")+(box:"=======XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX===")[(text-colour:white)[[[Back to Map->The Stigma Map]] ]]
(align:"<==>")+(box:"==XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX===")[<span style="font-size: 22px;">[(text-colour:black)[It’s time to hibernate
To build the walls so high that not even a slender man can measure up against them.
It’s time to swallow all the words I want to say
To cross out all the items, hopes and dreams on my wish list
Every time I opened up, I was shoved down. The bruises cover every inch of my skin, my body and my brain. (text-colour:white)[The monsters that cowered in the corners now dance on the ballroom floor of my wounded spirit. Too afraid, far too broken to ask for help, afraid of being locked away, being laughed at and ridiculed.
So, for now and maybe forever, I will hide. It’s better that way, safer]. </span>
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(text-colour:black)[When people are going through depression, they tend to internalise the stigma that has been projected onto them. Isolating them further due to stereotypes perputuated in the media and people who are not propely informed, creating a negative feedback loop, which can put their lives in danger.
//''What mental health needs is more sunlight, more candor, and more unashamed conversation''// - Glenn Close
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<h2>[No man's Land]</h2>
<span style="font-size: 21px;">(align:"<==")+(box:"=XXX=")[(text-colour:white)[ ''Here I reside,I am not coming back
No way, all the disappointment, all the pain.
It used to hurt like a swollen tumour
A roaring red bruise
And now?
Now I feel the cool comfort of nothing
The numbness the emptiness that shrouds me
No satellite signal
No saviour
No lost lover
Just me in this silence that comforts me and I can trust it so that’s a win for me'']] </span>
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<h3 style="font-size: 28px;">Outcome 1</h3>
[(text-colour:white)[
<span style="font-size: 21px;">(align:"<==")+(box:"XXXX=")[She had held on for a while
Bided her time holding onto all the things she was told to
Family friends the possibly of a future filled with love and success
But now she was gone
Because promises are made to be broken
Dreams morph into nightmares
The heart is an organ that forces us to live through our worst battles and fails us when we need it the most
Irony - Life is filled with irony
A mind game - a chess board rigged from before we were born.
No more pain, no more disappointment
No more giving and not receiving
No metamorphosis
No more
She’s free </span>
<span style="font-size: 21px;">And when pain racked through her body for the very last time
Death held her hand; it was warm
Her skin crawled, her chest tightened, and then she exhaled
Her soul leaving her body
And she was gone
They would all cry
They all would wish to say the things that they could’ve said
Emails would be sent - promoting superficial bullshit about mental health
But that wasn’t her problem. She had unlocked the door and slammed another one shut forever
Now she the water that flowed freely in a stream
She was in the ocean, no longer afraid of being eaten by sharks
She was the summer breeze that cools you on a hot day
A firefly dancing happily in the distance amongst a campsite
She was everything and nothing
And although she was gone
She would always be with you
Just never close enough to hold and touch
She was gone.
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<h2>Crawling back up</h2>
[But maybe there is more to life than this nothingness?
Maybe I can find a way to crawl out of this hole?
Maybe I can put a middle finger up to all those who left me behind to all the people that hurt
Maybe I can find my own salvation
Maybe I can see the world differently maybe the world might be different
I’ll never know unless I leave this place behind
Deep breaths
Count to ten
Nod my head
And I know it won’t be enough for when I remerge and maybe that’s all I need for now
Deep breaths and baby steps ]
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(text-colour:black)[<h2> [Happy Place]</h2>]
<span style="font-size: 22px;">(text-colour:black)[The journey to healing is to forgive yourself first. Not anyone else - start with you.
When the bad thoughts come like dark clouds rolling over a blue sky
Halt, pull the reigns of the negativity that is so easy to fall into
Trace a finger back to what made you feel that way.
Why the sudden sadness? Once you pause and reflect and catch that ball of pain you can pick it a part instead of letting it spread.
Validate yourself, your feelings your worth. You were meant to be here. Be your own anchor, create your own home from all the battle scars visible or invisible. Being strong isn’t not crying, isn’t always having a smile on your face and knowing the answers.
Being strong is allowing yourself to feel, to process how you feel and cutting ties from people and things that do not serve you.] </span>
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(text-colour:black)[<h3 style="font-size: 28px;">How are participants wished people would support them</h3>]
(text-colour:black)["Acknowledgement in words and kind deeds."
"Be more compassionate"
"Gently suggesting and supporting me"
"Listen to me and encourage me"
Listening without judgment"
"Hearing me out"]
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(align:"<==")+(box:"===========================XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX===")['' I love the way the guitar thrums in my ear
How comfort dances across my thumbs as I slot my AirPods in and press play on a playlist that I carefully curated
I love to dance when no one is watching , my mind elevated on a different plane
I love it when the song I know actually plays in the club and the rush of recognition that seeps into me like a stubborn tap refusing to shut off
I love when I get a new idea, it bounces against the walls of my brain, begging me to do something with it or let it free
I love when I feel safe, the moment when everyone’s laughing. I'm present but distant and I don’t want to, but I could fall asleep in bliss.
When the sun starts setting and the summer night air walks me back to the train station, music in my ears, and I’m back home
I love life even when I hate it because there
is always another reason to keep living it''
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<h2> (align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[Resources] </h2>
(text-colour:black)[(link: "The overwhelming case for ending stigma and discrimination in mental health")[(goto-url: 'https://www.who.int/europe/news/item/26-06-2024-the-overwhelming-case-for-ending-stigma-and-discrimination-in-mental-health')]
(link: "How to help someone with depression")[(goto-url: 'https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/depression/for-friends-and-family/')]
(link: "NHS guidance")[(goto-url: 'https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/conditions/depression-in-adults/overview/')]
(link: "International helplines")[(goto-url: 'https://findahelpline.com')]
(link: "Parents from ethnic minorities with mental health problems and their children")[(goto-url: 'https://www.communitycare.co.uk/2008/09/08/parents-from-ethnic-minorities-with-mental-health-problems-and-their-children/')]
(link: "AI Chatbots for Mental Health: Opportunities and Limitations")[(goto-url: 'https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/the-psyche-pulse/202407/ai-chatbots-for-mental-health-opportunities-and-limitations')]
(link: "Stigma, Prejudice and Discrimination Against People with Mental Illness")[(goto-url: 'https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/stigma-and-discrimination')]]
(link: "Stop Motion poem on Loneliness")[(goto-url: 'https://youtu.be/oTQknTsGQcQ?si=jb3nQL2O0HrET7kZ')]
(text-colour:black)[<h2>How to conquer Stigma</h2>]
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To conquer the stigma that surrounds depression, we need to have open and honest conversations about mental health, we need to rewrite the narrative. The ones that exist in our homes, in the media, in classrooms and institutions. According to the World Health Organisation, over 720,000 die due to suicide a year, and it is the third leading cause of death between people aged 15-29. This is something serious, depression is different for different people; what stops you from being down is not always transferrable to other people. Some people deal with conflict by burying it, others have to talk about it. As a society, we have an empathy deficit. Let us bring compassion and patience back into our communities and interpersonal relationships. If we do not learn, we risk having the same lesson taught to us over and over again. ]
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<h2>[Credits]</h2>
(text-colour:black)[This story was written, designed, developed and narrated by Charis.Clarissa for more information on the author feel free to check out her blog (link: "The Conscious Thoughts.com")[(goto-url: 'https://www.theconsciousthoughts.com')]
Check out the //[[resources page->Resources ]]// for more insight on how we can conquer stigma around mental health.
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